wow, almost a year since my last post. Don't know if i'm gonna start blogging regularly again but just have this sudden urge to blog, though my stomach is rather queasy right now.

So what has changed since the last time I was here. Mmmm, well, I'm a year older, going on into my final semester of Uni life, a proud business owner, my family's finally opening up to the relations and I've been on TV, a haunting fact that awards me the honorary position of the Jester at every class gathering.

The past 30 days were the happiest days of my 23 years of my life. They are also however, one of the saddest.

D met/noticed C on the 9th of Dec 2010. She appeared weird to him at first, answering a question that was not directed to her in the first place. Shortly after, she did a re-enactment of Mario which further increased her oddity. However, D soon found himself gravitating towards this oddity, this Browian motion of thinking. Texts from her would light up his face and eventually be noticed by his peers. A rejected invitation to Zouk would cause her distress as D found out in time, leading her to think that they would not see each other on that frequent of a basis, if ever at all, in the future. She even expressed this sentiment on the sly in words while D was fast asleep,tired out from the exams. Additionally, a note to C would eventually serve as her beacon of light during the exam period, in her room on her desk. Little did D know that C was also nursing a hurt that he would eventually swear to wait for and stand by her through.

They would eventually go out for the first time after on the day she was back from her holiday on the 19th of dec 2010. D was rather nervous to meet her friends for the first time and wanted to leave a good impression. However, though D did not feel like he had made an impactful one, C reassured him that he did. On that fateful night a surprised gesture would leave her flustered, thereafter walking the White Knight back to the bus stop. Slow as he was, D only realised that she was accompanying him and wanted to shoo her off to no avail. Secretly tho, he was glad.

The next time they would meet was through an impromptu invitation to a gathering amongst C's close friends and foreign friends. D blended in as well, integrating into her social circle. And before the meeting, he had gone on to shop for a suitable christmas present. Having little prior knowledge, he based on his gut feel in selecting the present. After her foreign friends left, they both stayed on at their friends abode to gamble. Being both sucky at gambling, they lost to the hosts. This time round, it was a surprised gesture from her with the usage of a Wang Wang that left him flustered. He would soon send her home and they would share their first kiss. At this juncture however, D already knowing the fact that C was recovering from being heartbroken, sensed that she was distraught. He asked her about it and she denied, only to confirm his suspicions the next day via sms.

Christmas came and it was an absolute joy for D as C loved what he had planned for her. It was the only other time besides that cat, that D had a Merry Christmas. Though C had forgotten to bring his present at the last moment and felt guity, it really did not matter, for C was the present enough. The sea breeze, the stars, the ship lights and horns were their company for the night. Not to mention the little roaches stealing the toothpicks. This was something that D will remember for the rest of his life.

A potluck at C's friend's place would serve to further strengthen the bond between them, or so D thought.

Soon enough, D had to go for a camp that was part of his business dealings. It was during this camp that C got emotional and D was swamped with work and couldnt be there for her, to be understanding, so basically he was a giant prick. Their first disagreement occured. D and C managed to get past the disagreement that night however to D, silence over the phone felt uncomfortable.

2011 came and in that first week D met C a couple of times. C showed D around her estate and D really felt on cloud nine that day. They went to malaysia the next day with a gourp of C's friends. The day started out great but however, midway through, it seemed as if C's attitude had taken a complete turn-around. Whether this was true, is still to be found out, but D highly suspected so.

After malaysia, C's smses felt cold and terms of endearment were rarely/not even used. D currently stands puzzled and freaked out, not knowing what to do and not wanting to be in the same situations as he was so many times before. He still wants very badly for things to work out between C and him but I guess the ball is in her court now. D will continue showing care for C but there will be a plaguing image that C find's him irritating and is growing tired. Or maybe its just the korean dramas and the mood swings....

To be continued...

Desmond blogged on 10:57 PM

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